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Joyce, You know you've done your best because you are the one who knows if you fudge at anything in life or if you give it everything you've got. If you don't know what your best or worst is, no one can tell you. Coaches coax more out of an athlete by encouraging them to push past their limits or their comfort zones to BELIEVE they can do more than they are doing. Often, they can do more. Care-giving seems to demand more & more of a person until the person realizes that they can't keep up the pace any longer w/ the needs & problems increasing daily causing demands that realistically cannot be satisfied by a human being whom has been pushing past their physical & mental capabilities for extended periods of time. We are already heroes. We just don't wear capes & have super-human powers. blou
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I am dealing with the guilt too. I am trying to make myself understand I cannot change this awful disease and save my dad from its destruction. Some things just are and no matter how hard we try we cannot fix everything. And I am also trying to forgive myself for the frustration I feel and yes, the anger too. This is a horrible part of life's journey. My dad could have did from a hear attack over two years ago and we put in a stint . We save his heart only to watch his mind go and to see him suffer so desperately. I so,often wish we hadn't done that, but who knew. He is hurting so much because he knows he is not in his right mind. Breaks my heart, and I make myself crazy trying to fix it...but I can't. Maybe if I stopped trying to fix it and just love him I wouldn't be so frustrated and angry ? Sounds good, easier said than down when you loved one is miserable:(
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It seems that we will never be able to do enough and make our loved ones happy. I just recently decided to retire from my job that I've loved for 29 years to stay home and care for my 93 year old Mum. I know that I'm committing emotional suicide by doing this, but it's what we do as caregivers. Sacrifice our happiness and emotional well being to care for our parents. I just couldn't live with myself if I didn't do everything in my power to try to make a good life for my Mum even if she doesn't appreciate it. We do have to remember that we are human and it's not wrong to be frustrated and feel that we have nothing else to give. I find such great comfort in this website and it gives me the little extra boost I need when I don't think I can do it anymore. Stay strong dear friends, we're all in this together!
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I can relate to what everyone has said. You are doing the right thing for her--keeping her safe and cared for (even tho she is refusing some of that care). You are acting in her best interests with love and concern. Some people are negative and see the "bad" and not the "good" My mom constantly retells stories about all the negative things that happened to her and her family and never talks about the happy times. I guess you just have to listen and try not to let it bring you down and that is hard to do. I try to change the subject -- talk about something uplifting but it doesn't always help.
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It's called depression, and it CAN be treated.
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You are doing all possible but being good to, yourself~
DON'T judge yourself~enough others will do that~you need to love you.
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I did not read answers or your entire question~~I respond from "How do you judge..."
You don't judge. You love yourself for what you do & how you do it. Then that is what you have to give~~JUDGE~~loose that concept~~it steams from fear.
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It is easy to be resentful and that brings on the guilt. I never dreamed that I would be spending my entire 6th decade taking care of my nasty mother in law. But that's what happened and I'm not thrilled about it. My wonderful,sweet
husband died..........and instead of him (the love of my life) I've got her.

I hate looking at all the "perfect" couples on facebook. So I don't go on facebook anymore because it breeds more resentment, etc.
My MIL is never happy and makes me feel guilty that it must be my fault. Well it isn't............ and for whatever reason she's miserable, I try not to beat myself up with guilt because it makes things even worse.
Over and out from "the twilight zone."
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What do I do when my brother causes more trouble than help concerning my mother. She lives with me ....in my house.
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Lostwoman - You start a new post with more details on exactly what kind of trouble your brother is causing, and promptly find out how many people are in the same boat...then collect all the different opinions and see if there is anythng good you haven;t tried already.
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Honestly your mother would probably suffer the same depression and anger even if she were able to alone in her own home.What she wants is the youth she enjoyed, the freedom, the health, the security she had. She knows she it's gone forever but it doesn't stop the dream.Getting old, suffering the indignities of old age and the dependance on others is a bitter pill to swallow.If you are doing all you can to make her passage into this next phase of her life comfortable then rest easy.
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you make a great point. I am 30 years younger than my mom and I am feeling discouraged about aging. Don't heal as fast, can't shake off aches and pains as a few years ago. Takes longer to get over a simple thing like a cold. Aging happens to all of us. Part of life. You gave me a new perspective--to see things thru her eyes.
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My mother has been ill for the past 25 years. Suffering at least 10 strokes since then her poor body is pretty well shot. She has several health issues, Afib, high cholesterol , osteoporosis and dementia. During the past 25 years I have given up 3 part time jobs and so much of my personal time away from my husband to take care of both her and my dad before he passed. So I am no stranger to care giving. Both of my parents are/were very sweet, good people and we are very close. Moms hip broke last March and has been in a assisted living facility since confined to a wheel chair, PT says that she must have someone with her at all times. She absolutely, positively HATES it there. The Doctor stated that he would not release her due tot the fact that she must have the 24/7 care. Every day either when visiting or when we speak on the phone she BEGS me to get her out of there. Some days I feel like maybe I made a mistake and she can take care of herself, but when the next phone call or visit comes and the dementia is ever present I realize that this is where she should be for her well being. I have ran out of ways to answer the question "why can't I go home" and to add insult to injury she wants to know "why no one wants her", "why" are we allowing her to be held prisoner, people are stealing her things (not happening), there are mice all around (no). My husband and myself took care of mom 2 years ago for about 7 weeks. She had hospital psychosis and was recovering from afib problems, mild stroke and severe anemia and it was 24/7, I thought I was going to have a breakdown. So I know that I am not a candidate to take her back in. My mother is a very sweet dear person we have always been very close but when the mental inconsistencies show up its to much for one person to manage. Any suggestions how to answer her when she feels that we are doing this to be mean to her. Its taking a toll on me. It has become the only topic I seem to discuss with people over and over again. Thank you in advance for any and all help. Hope this makes sense. Debbie
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Oh Deb! My heart goes out to you! Is mom being seen by a geriatric psychiatrist? There are meds that might help, like antidepressants or antianxiety drugs. Blame the doctor! " the doctor says you have to be stronger, mom". It's worth a shot.
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So sorry Deb you are doing the best you can and the dementia will never let her see why she is where she is. Do as babalou says and tell her the Dr just won't let her go home now you don't have dad to help. it is so hard to constantly visit such a negative person so maybe cut back a bit on your visits. Try and talk about positive things. take her soft things to hold such a soft blanket or toy, large or small. A favorite food or pretty card might take her mind off things. Can you wheel her out in good weather. i am afraid it is her dementia progressing so you can only modify her behaviour by medications that is anti anxiety or sedatives. it is a sad and hard choice but her disease is only going to progress so you have to find a way to deal with your emotions. blessings to you and Mom. Feel free to come back her and talk to others no one will mind and be ready to help. We all have the choice of reading your posts and replying or not so don't let your feelings of constantly writing the same thing over and over stop you. it is very therapeutic to get things written down it helps you see things more clearly.
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Greeeaaaat answers!! WHO WOULD WANT TO LIVE LIKE THAT???? NO ONE!!! Let her complain...that's really all she can do, it's not your fault! I'm going early too....just give me the valiums...for sure!!! No fear of death...just living to the end of life!!
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Sounds like my aunt. She has no children but the demands on the nieces and nephews are endless. She is 83yrs old, also a recluse, needed help and my cousin put her into an assisted living home. She hates the people, demands to move back to her home alone, is never appreciative of anyone doing anything and complains all the time. We're all exhausted, since we all still run around for our parents, her siblings and in-law siblings. We've run out of steam and it creates conflict among us cousins. She is a problem and never happy.

I broke my ankle very badly 5 months ago, still have trouble with swelling and stiffness apart from the 'knobs' on both sides of it. I hate asking my sons for help, though they did at first and miy wonderful sister who insisted on paying for a full-time carer for a full 2 months until I could manage a bit more on crutches. I hope I can always put my kid's happiness first, knowing that life for them is also to strive for better, even if they are professionals. I just never want to feel sorry for myself and when I do, I can mope on my own without them knowing.
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Joyce you really are doing your level best in a terrible situation. I agree the Doctor(s) should be doing more and please keep on at them as the nursing staff are usually stretched . The sedative might be the only answer. It is very difficult as I found even when I lived a mile from the nursing home. An independent caregiver as " ladee " suggested would be ideal! I only wish I had done this as my husband tried to stop me going to the home every day. Do let us all know when and if things improve.
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My situation pales to yours, but is similar in many ways. The biggest difference is that my brother and I persuaded Mom to move close to me (independent retirement living facility w/home health care available - no kitchens and the facility provides 3 meals a day). She has been here about a year and I beat my head against the wall daily wondering what magic I can perform to "fix it" because she greets me with misery and unhappiness every time I see her or talk to her. She will mellow and be civil after a bit - if I handle her correctly.

Trust me - you are absolutely doing all that you can do. Some things just can't be resolved. If you left her at home and some tragic event took place - which is more than likely what would have happened - you would feel even worse. Hang in there! This is the hardest thing I have ever endured.
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"She is 91, suffers with dementia, behavioral dilusions, develops blood clots (has a vena cava filter to prevent problems), has really bad osteoarthritis and has short term memory issue as well as aphasia. Now she has not let anyone touch her for over a year, and her toenails are so bad, they are grotesque. She has anxiety and depression and paranoia (getting meds for this)."

Wow, reread your own quote above. You are being WAY to hard on yourself and unrealistic!!! It's amazing how wonderful people can tear themselves down with misplaced guilt or shame and so unhealthy. Mom is where she needs to be. But I agree with the poster who says she needs hygiene and foot care--this can be deadly in older people, period. I'm all for patient rights but some of this gets absurd when you are clearly taking about people that are mentally impaired which is why they are in a facility in the first place! Peace and blessings to you.
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Does this go back to 2012?
Still relevant to the original message?
Just curious,
M88
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Like every one who answered you, I' m in the same boat, plus I too I' m an only child with a chronic illness on top of the other painful things. The fact that you're questioning yourself proves that you're a loving daughter still wanting to provide relief and happiness to your dear mom. Sadly love is not enough to compensate for the losses this d@#n disease affecting your mom causes.It is not your fault and sadly not in the power of anyone to give back to your mom the capacity to enjoy life anymore. Because the desease rip her of the capacity of adapting,tasting, enjoying,she is unhappy. My own mom lives the same in a very nice nursing home. She' s made a great female friend and they are like sisters. She has a very nice appartment with her own tv set and bedroom set. But she is unhappy. With very good reasons because she is losing herseelf bit by bit. As much as I understand that, as much as I love her, I' m just a poor human being and I have to admit I cannot as I was used to it bring relief to her. It is heart breaking and when she calls to lament herself, some day, when I' m myself to down, I found a pretext not to talk and to hang up with kindness. We used to judge if we are doing right with our loved ones by the results we obtained and that´s why we are so troubled and unsure and feel guilty with our poor suffering moms, because the disease put them out of our reach in a way. We must change our criterion to judge ourselves not by the results we hoped for but by the love, guilt, torment we're suffering on their behalf. If you're not indifferent, if you're worried, if you suffer to be unable to do better, then you are a loving daughter. Be at peace on that point. I hope, I've answered your anguished question a bit. Remember, it' s not you the cause of your mom's sufferings, it´s the disease.
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Well if it is not relevant to the person who asked this in 2012, it could be for another today in a similar situation😘
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Peace and Blessing Joyce, I pray all is well with you and yours.You are not alone and you are doing a fantastic job! The dynamics involved in caring for a loved one are complicated, add Dementia and or Alzheimer's and it becomes incomprehensible for most of us because of the constant roller-coaster of behavior and emotions that present themselves.

Here is where your faith really comes in. Look at the practicality of what you are doing, she cannot take care of herself and you are taking care of her, there is no price or value that can be placed on the personal sacrifice one human being makes for another, know that what you are doing is the ultimate gift of love, it is the ultimate sacrifice, those who know her and still interact with her know deep down that she wouldn't be here if it weren't for your valuable assistance. Making her happy is a futile undertaking however. We cannot maintain another persons outlook on life, all you can do is your best to provide the things she needs, her wants and don't wants or likes and don't likes are what you cannot control. I am in the same boat and deal with ungratefulness and being unappreciated everyday. They do become comfortable with their caregiver to the point that they let it all out emotionally. I get the angry, depressed, unenthusiastic, resistant and argumentative person, everyone else gets the warm, friendly, exited, enthusiastic and very grateful person. This is because for Dementia and Alzheimer's sufferers, appearance is everything. They are fighting the disease and are often confused about what is happening to them but they want to appear as normal on the outside. This brings out all sorts of emotions and is an exhausting process that is always taking place in the background of a Dementia sufferers mind. They have to use so much energy when in social situations and around others in an effort to present themselves as having it all together, that when they are finally at home alone with "just" the caregiver, the emotional breakdown and release can come out in many forms. Another dynamic is the fact that as caregiver's (care providers), we are the ones who represent the doctors, the nurses, the pharmacy, we are the ones who have to say "no" to sugar and salt and other things detrimental that they may want, we are the ones making them bathe, stay hydrated, eat right, keep moving etc, this builds animosity over time and soon we are not family anymore, we have become the "bad cop" so to speak subconsciously for them and they unknowingly treat us bad. Lately however her behavior is coming out at Church and other places and people now know my sweet, innocent, saintly, Christian mother has a pair of horns and a tail! LOL I knew all along but everyone thought I was crazy. But that's also part of Caregiving, being questioned, doubted, told we are exaggerating about whats going on with our loved one, until they see it for themselves.

Caregiving is by far one of the hardest jobs and when it involves family, it can be a nightmare. The number one thing I deal with is a lack of support and appreciation from not only my mother but my family in general. Know Joyce that what you are going through is building your character up to another level, you are literally an angel to have stepped up and accepted the task of making her final years the best they can be and you will be blessed tremendously. I live by this prayer: God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I CANNOT change...Courage to change the things I can and WISDOM to know the difference! I also ask for my patience to be replenished and for more wisdom and understanding. Last but not least, get some YOU time, there is no crime in feeling overwhelmed or exhausted, Jesus couldn't help or save everybody so what makes us think we can! Caregivers are chosen for a reason and a season, because we possess the qualities rooted in empathy for others, we may not think we are capable of handling the situation,but God knew who to put in your position. I have found that when I stopped fighting the circumstances, I began to learn valuable lessons about my mother and myself and see it more as an opportunity than a stressful burden. It is still the most difficult thing I have had to do in my life but ultimately, it is the most rewarding because my mother deserves every moment she has left to be the best it can be and I am thankful for the opportunity to be here for her.
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My mother, 89, is a true narcissist and, as a result, is never happy no matter WHAT. At nearly 59 years old myself, and an only child (adopted), I've spent most of my life trying to do the impossible: make her happy. It's not possible, and it's taken me 50-some-odd-years to finally figure that out! She crucified my Dad, who passed last June, and she still talks badly about him, believe it or not. I mentioned my husband had gone to the movies yesterday, which spurred on a memory and story she repeated for the 200th time about how terrible it was when my Dad took her to the movies about 6 years ago. She fell down and he didn't even notice, if-you-can-imagine-the-nerve. The story before that one was about how Dad had 'prevented her from doing all the things she loved to do before she met him'. She lives in a $4,200 per month ALF, in an apartment that the director uses as the 'show home model', she has a wardrobe fit for a queen, has tons of visitors and phone calls, is taken out for dinner on a regular basis, and on & on. And still, she dwells in misery. Is it 'my fault'? Nope, it certainly is not. I've been there for both of my folks every step of the way, and I was with him right up until he died. I'll be with Mom as well. Women like turn Guilt into an art form. No matter what I do, it's never quite 'enough', so I can be left to feel guilty or I can recognize what's happening: that I'm being played like a violin. Unfortunately, there is no 'answer' to the dilemma we face, as children of women like this. I love my mother with all my heart, but God forgive me I DO NOT like her.

I wish you the very best of luck navigating through the muck & the mire known as old age, dementia, possible narcissism, and everything else that goes along with being a daughter. Try not to punish yourself for what you're 'not doing', and start loving yourself for what you ARE doing. It IS enough.
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I have been right where you are, down to the call hang-up. I also am an only child and was in this situation with my father. He latterly distorted a hospital room because each doctor that saw him he fired and I would rehire. It seemed to me, no matter how hard I tried to help it was wrong or of no help to him. What is an only child to do? There simply is no one else to help.

My dad would call five and six times a day then hang up on me if I answered. I did move from one city to another to take care of him. What could I do? I tried everything I knew and I seemed to always to be doing just the thing he did not want. After many months I was advised by his doctor and his attorney to get a Guardianship. They explained that he would not just be allowed to ‘fire’ any professional necessary to treat his health issues.

My answer came by way of his clergy; I would go away for two days to get a fresh prospective on this situation (no cell phone at the time what a blessing). After much thought I began to see 'it is impossible to reason or even talk to someone who is in this condition. My resolve after these two days was to: 1. I would look back on his wishes earlier in life when I believe he was in a best place or right mind to distinguish what he would want. This was mostly founded on his experience with others he knew in this situation he was now in. My decisions would be ruled on his past wishes. 2. I weighed every decision on a scale of how I would face myself later after he had passed.

Using this process I know I did the right thing for my father. This is not to say this strategy will work in every case however it is something to consider. My profession now is a Geriatric Case Manger.
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I do believe that 'man' needs a purpose and not too much relaxation and this is what happens as we age. Some elderly do not cope well 'sitting around' and life has not worked out as they initially envisioned. It just is. Nobody gives this much thought when we're young and I think it's a bit of a shock. That said, there is only so much we can do before exhaustion takes over and there is little left to give. My experience were that I eventually shut down the 'past' topics and decided that if I can help provide what my parent/s need in terms of a roof, food, clothes and 'maintenance, then that is where it stops. They have what they need and should be happy that a child still looks out for them. I do not have to entertain all their miserable memories, because I cant erase it. Therefore, I do not give them a platform to voice it and choose to make my life and theirs happier by changing the subject and looking ahead. My dad did not like it at first, but it is all I can cope with and it was all up to me. He stopped with the nonsense of whining and demands. What a change it was for the better.
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Joyce, I often ask myself the same question. I believe my mom to be inconsolable and a "yes, but-er" who resists opportunities to feel better and people to provide her comfort. The longer it goes on, the more at risk we are of developing compassion fatigue. Trying to do it long distance is even more of a struggle and worry. It's like the cell phone, the more you use it the lower the battery gets and you have to recharge it. Or sense of smell, exposure to the scent over a long period of time renders you unable to smell it because the olfactory senses are fatigued. Add the fact that there is no immediate, positive feedback on what you do for her combined with a negative world view, it is understandable why you feel you have failed in some way to do the best you can to make your mother happy. Was she always like this or is it a personality change from the dementia? I can tell you that I have stayed home with mom for the whole month of July except to go for the groceries and to church, and she is still complaining about being alone all day, every day. At some point I have to set boundaries and limits.
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I posted this recovery reading on my blog today, and thought it appropriate to share here:
The Language of Letting Go
Responsibility for Family Members

I can still remember my mother clutching her heart, threatening to have a heart attack and die, and blaming it on me.
—Anonymous
For some of us, the idea that we were responsible for other people's feelings had its roots in childhood and was established by members of our nuclear family. We may have been told that we made our mother or father miserable, leading directly to the idea that we were also responsible for making them happy. The idea that we are responsible for our parents' happiness or misery can instill exaggerated feelings of power and guilt in us.

We do not have this kind of power over our parents - over their feelings, or over the course of their lives. We do not have to allow them to have this kind of power over us.

Our parents did the best they could. But we still do not have to accept one belief from them that is not a healthy belief. They may be our parents, but they are not always right. They may be our parents, but their beliefs and behaviors are not always healthy and in our best interest.

We are free to examine and choose our beliefs.

Let go of guilt. Let go of excessive and inappropriate feelings of responsibility toward parents and other family members. We do not have to allow their destructive beliefs to control our feelings, our behaviors, our life, or us.

Today, I will begin the process of setting myself free from any self-defeating beliefs my parents passed on to me. I will strive for appropriate ideas and boundaries concerning how much power and how much responsibility I can actually have in my relationship with my parents.

From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie ©1990, Hazelden Foundation.
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